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Eric Myers' Man of the House: Finding My Way Back - The Beginning

Eric Myers • Nov 19, 2013 at 3:24 PM

Read any self help book or listen to any motivational speaker and you

will hear the same advice: problem solving begins with problem

identification. It's a simple and straightforward idea really, you

can't fix what you don't know is broken, and it was my first step down

the healing road of getting a sense of purpose and importance from being

an at-home parent.

For those readers who missed my most recent article, let me borrow a

line or two from it in order to help you quickly understand where I was

when it came to dealing with my daughter after a short time of being an

at-home dad. "I resented her….I can sum up my emotional and mental

attitude succinctly this way: she was an irritation, an imposition, a

hindrance, and a duty."

"Yikes!" you might say, and you'd be right.

"You shouldn't have been caring for a child with that attitude" you might also add.

Well, if people were honest, there might be a larger percentage of

people caring for children who have a similar attitude than we might

want to know. However, what began to happen with me was that I began

to become more and more aware of my negative attitude. I would sit to

play with Caroline and she would be laughing and she would be having fun

and I began to recognize that I wanted to be having fun too. I wanted

to be enjoying my time with her. I began to feel this gnawing sense of

dissatisfaction with what I was doing and, more importantly, how I was

doing it. I didn't want to look forward to nap time anymore, I wanted

to look forward to being with Caroline.

It's one thing to feel a generalized sense of irritation and

dissatisfaction. For example, maybe you don't like "work" or you don't

feel comfortable in "that church" or you find yourself on edge at

"family functions". However, it's an altogether different thing to have

your irritation specified and personified. Then your work problem

becomes you don't like Jim, your church problem becomes you're put off

by Mike the door greeter, and your family functions are spoiled by Aunt

Janice and your brother Ed. Now it's specific. Now you know. Now, as

they say, you are standing at the proverbial fork in the road and you

have a clear choice: how are you going to choose to handle the issue?

So, who was causing my issue? My one year old daughter? Nope.

Who was the source of my irritation and dissatisfaction? I was. I was the issue. My problem was with me.

It's almost easier to have the problem person be someone else, you

know? As I sat at looked into the mirror one morning I recognized my

choice, I could wallow in my puddle of irritation for another 5 years,

or I could set out to change me in order to enjoy this time that

seemingly everyone else around me thought was special. I decided to

change me.

And where I began was the most basic and important of all places. More on that next week.

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